Feeling blue?

Nail polish – OPI “Blue shatter”

Mascara – MAC Extended Play in “endlessly black”

Wall art – Natural Life ‘Love You to the Moon’ Wire

Book – The One Memory of Flora Banks by Emily Barr

Brush – OceanPure Detangling Blue

Makeup remover – Sephora waterproof

 

I just bought this book because the summary sounded interesting. I haven’t really started it yet, so if it’s crap, sorry in advance. But the blue in the cover sparked me to do a blue post. I know shatter nails are pretty much out by now, but I do love the shade of this polish. It looks particularly amazing if you do it over white nails. The mascara is my current go to. I have what I like to call “guylashes” – no length, no volume. This mascara doesn’t do much for volume, but they really do make them look so much longer than they are, which is all I want. This wire art is something I got awhile back and still haven’t hung up, even though I love it. One day I’ll grab some nails and a stepladder . . . The brush is, well, my hairbrush. As for this makeup remover, I WISH YOU COULD SEE IT UPRIGHT. I just got this yesterday in my Sephora box and I haven’t used it yet because I just bought a makeup remover (isn’t that always the way?) but the blue and clear liquid are separated in the bottle, even if you shake it up. I’m easily amused, okay?

You Got Me Buzzing Just Like . . .

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The 80’s are making a comeback.

Everywhere I look, a sign of the decade seems to be cropping up. Stranger Things was all anyone could talk about (I still haven’t seen it. Iknowdon’tkillme). My instagram feed is full of makeup artist doing all sorts of creative, bright and colorful things with eyeshadows (and lipsticks!). Stars and beauty gurus are flipping their hair to one side for volume or going straight for the spiral curls (a trend I will NOT be hopping on). Even the  the remake of It has been reset in the 80’s (I’m not a horror movie buff, but I have a thing for Bill Skarsgård. Not as a psycho clown, but as anything else and we’re getting sidetracked . . .)

And of course, neon.

Neon nails, neon jewelry, neon eyeshadow, neon lipstick, even neon hair. I was born in 1986, so neon colors were definitely part of my generation’s childhood. I liked any color that had the word “electric” in front of it. Even as a teenager, my dream car was a neon, lime green Volkswagen (one day) and my room was decorated with blacklight posters, a lime green lava lamp, plastic neon hearts and smilies and flowers that stuck to my wall. Black was my favorite, but if I had to do color, it was going to be in-your-face color, nothing ordinary or pastel and washed out.

Yeah. I liked neon.

Recently, I got the new Monster High movie because yes, I really like Monster High. As you can see from the pic, there’s an electric theme going on. But I can see so many cues from the 80’s happening, from the crimped hair to the big ruffles and bows to, yes, the neon.

It’s a trend I’m more than happy to ride on for a little while.

Even if you’re not ready to go full on with an hot pink sweater or canary yellow skinny jeans, you can always sneak it in with a little accessory. Although I say sneak, but, no matter water, neon wants to be noticed.

But that’s sort of the point.

 

Choker – Monsoon (sold out)

Nail polish – China Glaze in “Turned Up Turqoise”

Glasses – zeroUV in Green

March Playlist

 

March brought the end of one of my favorite shows: The Vampire Diaries. I had a whole post I was planning on doing for it and was very excited about it. I had planned to collaborate with my good friend, Charissa, on it. Charissa is an extremely creative talent I’ve known since grade school, and an even bigger TVD fan than I am. She lives out of state (let’s face it: all my friends do now) so I planned to take the train up to visit with her. We were going to watch the finale together, and then the next day were going to take photos for the blog in different locations she had in mind. Except that day a huge snowstorm decided to hit. It was nice just chilling together, writing and watching bad movies (Grizzly Rage, anyone?), but it meant the blog post was out of the question. I still plan on doing it, but it just takes a bit of planning for me to get up there again. Maybe when the final season hits DVD, we’ll see.

Sooo the beginning of this playlist has a lot of songs featured on The Vampire Diaries that I liked and didn’t already have on my iPod. Brand new music wasn’t as heavy as last month, but I did get a new song from Amy Lee and All Time Low (which I’m loving the video for).

As always, stars are high recommendations.

  1. “Gravity” Sara Bareilles
  2. “Yet” Switchfoot
  3. “Cosmic Love” Florence + The Machine
  4. “This Magic Moment” The Misfits ft. Ronnie Spector
  5. “Wires” Athlete
  6. “Amen Omen” Ben Harper
  7. “Don’t You Remember” Adele
  8. “Eternal Flame” Candice King & S.O. Stereo
  9. “Be Still” The Fray
  10. “I Swear” All-4-One
  11. “Winter Song” Ingrid Michaelson & Sara Bareilles
  12. “Go In Peace” Candice King
  13. “Still Hurting” Candice King
  14. “Hit Me With Your Best Shot” Candice King
  15. “Hi-Diddle-Dee-Dee” Walter Catlett
  16. “Red Earth & Pouring Rain” Bear’s Den *
  17. “Speak To Me” Amy Lee
  18. “Night Moves” Bob Seger & The Silver Bullett Band
  19. “Lost Stars” Keira Knightley
  20. “Drag Me Down” One Direction
  21. “My December” Linkin Park
  22. “Last Young Renegade” All Time Low *
  23. “Do Or Die” Afrojack & 30 Seconds to Mars
  24. “I’m Alive” Aaron Tveit
  25. “When the Heart Dies” Nataša Mirković De Ro
  26. “It’s Alright, It’s OK” Ashley Tisdale
  27. “Break Your Halo” Andy Black
  28. “Story” The Lookouts
  29. “We Let It All Out” Good Charlotte
  30. “My Name Is Benjamin Button” Brad Pitt
  31. “Hall Of Fame” Jacob Artist, Blake Jenner, Chord Overstreet, Samuel Larsen, Kevin McHale

 

Art prints

Casual Disney

Warm weather is supposedly right around the corner. If you live somewhere else. According to my weather app, we’re supposed to get snow on Friday. I actually like the cold because I know the alternative is being hot. I’m not a fan of summer–the heat, sweat, frizz, the sun . . . no thank you.

One of the things that I always hated about summer was the need to expose more skin. I am a firm pants wearer and hadn’t put on a pair of shorts since my early teen years. I do not like my legs. There’s the obvious overweight factor, but I’m overweight everywhere, so that really wasn’t it. I have weird red bumps and pores that stand out even more since I’m super pale, a badly done tattoo, and one ankle that is thicker than the other. But last summer, I saw a pair of shorts I liked online, that actually came in my size, and ordered them. I can’t tell you how many times I put them on, took them off, wrestled with myself if I should walk out of the house. I felt like everyone was going to stare at the girl with the super-short shorts, exposing her pasty thunder thighs, even though, logically, I know no one actually gives a f*ck. So I wore them out. Aaaand that was about it.

So with spring officially starting this month, I decided to show an outfit I wore last summer when I went to Disney World (which HOLY NO, NEVER GO TO DISNEY WORLD IN JUNE).

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I already talked extensively about the black cut off shorts, so I’ll stop. The white t-shirt is super soft and airy and perfect for hot weather. It can be quite see-through, though, so I’d stick a cami underneath. I feel like even my nude-colored bra shows through, because the material can be a bit clingy.

The shredded shorts make their own statement, but since the tee is so plain, it allows you to go in whatever direction you want with the accessories!

The gladiator sandals came from ASOS, but I don’t recommend stomping around Disney in them. These boots aren’t made for walking (and they’re not boots). However, they’re fine for something casual, and I love that you can zipper up the back and not have to mess with all the buckles.

collageFor my wrist I stuck with a plain(ish) cuff with black pyramid studs. The rest of the jewelry, I went full Disney for obvious reasons. The Mickey Mouse-shaped earrings actually didn’t make it to me in time for my Disney trip, BUT I MEANT TO WEAR THEM OKAY, SO SHH. They’re made of of tiny little black studs and are really cute. They’re a little bigger than I thought they would be, but they still work.

My favorite part of this look is definitely the Beauty and the Beast themed necklace. I love glitter and charms, and old looking writing and little corked bottles, so it’s a win all around. It pulls the gold from the sandals’ buckles and, if you like a tiny bit of color, the little rose on the top of the bottle is really cute.

So remember kids: plain clothes don’t have to be plain, take a fashion risk even if you’re set in your ways, and stay out of Florida in June.

February Playlist

fullsizerenderOh February. So short, but a rollcoaster of emotions. First of all, I got to fly to Georgia and spend a week with my best friend. At this same time last year, she told me she was moving from our home state of Massachusetts down there and it was/is devastating to me. But while I was there, we got to chill, shop, laugh at everyone getting snow back home while we popped over to Chick-Fil-A in 70 degree weather, watch a shit ton of Sons of Anarchy with her husband (I’ve seen it, they hadn’t, which is always fun), and wrangle her three little kids – Adele (who told me the day before I left that she “wished today could last forever”), Hudson (who is recently potty trained and brought out his training toilet full of, um, surprises and said, “Ta da!”), and Wyatt (who tore my heart out when he didn’t remember me on arrival and shied away, but was running to me and cuddling within the first four hours). I spent Valentine’s Day in an airport and on a plane, flying home, and then the evening watching movies. February also brought my birthday, which, I can’t lie, sucked. My family tried to be there for me, but it was the first birthday where I didn’t have a single friend in town to celebrate with, so I spent a majority of the day in bed and tears. I KNOW, BREAK OUT THE VIOLINS.

What didn’t suck was the music this month! Ohhhh myyyyy gooooosh. So many of my favorites released new music. John Mayer released another EP. Amy Lee, Nick Jonas, All Time Low, and Lana Del Rey all released new songs. And Chord Overstreet released “Hold On.” I first heard this song from a fan vid someone took of him singing it acoustically and immediately fell in love with everything about it, especially the lyrics. At the beginning of the month, he finally released a studio version of it and if you haven’t heard it yet, you need to. Need. To.

As always, starred songs are highly recommended/favorites

  1. “Toxic Valentine” All Time Low
  2. “Some Beach” Blake Shelton
  3. “Hold On” Chord Overstreet ***********
  4. “Life Changes” Good Charlotte
  5. “40 oz. Dream” Good Charlotte
  6. “Life Can’t Get Much Better” Good Charlotte *
  7. “Keep Swingin'” Good Charlotte ft. Kellin Quinn
  8. “Reason to Stay” Good Charlotte ft. Simon Neil
  9. “Stray Dogs” Good Charlotte *
  10. “Stick to Your Guns” Good Charlotte
  11. “The Outfield” Good Charlotte
  12. “Cars Full Of People” Good Charlotte
  13. “War” Good Charlotte
  14. “Moving On” Good Charlotte
  15. “Love Exists” Amy Lee *
  16. “Bom Bidi Bom” Nick Jonas & Nicki Minaj *
  17. “Dirty Laundry” All Time Low *
  18. “Beautiful You” Ray Johnston Band
  19. “Love” Lana Del Rey *
  20. “Bring Me To Life” Toxic Audio
  21. “When You Say Nothing At All” Susan Wong
  22. “Don’t Leave Me In The Night Time” Kenny Rogers ft. Buckwheat Zydeco
  23. “I Have Seen The Children/I Heard It First On The Radio/Dream On/Oh, The Precious Blood of Jesus” Bill & Gloria Gaither
  24. “Still Feel Like Your Man” John Mayer
  25. “Emoji of a Wave” John Mayer
  26. “Helpless” John Mayer
  27. “Roll It On Home” John Mayer
  28. “Country Song” Ian Janes

 

Products in photo:

Bathroom selfie

All right, so the concept of this post is a little contrived. I confess, I never really took bathroom selfies before. Back in the Myspace days (yes, I’m that old), it was all the rage to take your digital camera into the john, angle your duck lips at the mirror and make sure you got that flash in there so it looked like some sort of sunburst happened. But I lived in a one bathroom house that displayed a rectangle face mirror that my 5’1″ stature could just lift my head into view. Unless people wanted to see how white my forehead was, there really wasn’t any point.

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Actual Myspace selfie circa nunyabusiness AD.

The bathroom situation has definitely improved for me and most of us can relate to spending time in it getting ready. And there is value in the selfie. Sometimes after I’m done getting ready, I look at myself in the mirror and think YES. But a quick snap with the phone may reveal a section of hair that didn’t get straightened, a smudge of rogue eyeliner where it shouldn’t be, or Dear God is THAT what this top looks like from this angle?

But in the end, the bathroom selfie is just meant to be a bit of fun with yourself before you hit the [insert location of choice].

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So for my bathroom selfie shoot, I went with the outfit I usually wear to the mall or anywhere else that I’m casually going to with friends. This is actually two tops that I layered. The first is from Shein. I LOVE the cut out neck of this, so much so that I use it as it’s own accessory and skip the necklaces. The site lists the top as a one size, and I’m sure it’s meant to be baggy and loose. But please. With my chest? I fill it out completely and it instantly became a crop top. I thought about returning it, but I loved the way the arms fit and, again, THAT NECKLINE. So underneath it, I put on a black cami from Tilly’s. Again, this is listed as a one-size, but the material is super stretchy. However, this is completely form-fitting, so if you’re self-conscious about your middle, this takes getting used to. I was so used to wearing everything super loose that I almost didn’t leave the house the first time I put these two tops together. Now I’m psyched when I get to put them on.

acOf course, you have to add a little bit of accessory. You don’t need a purse in the potty (unless you do, who am I to judge?) but I threw in this clutch purse from Torrid because I like how its uniqueness can stand on its own. Like I said, I skipped the necklace and really wasn’t feeling any bracelets with this either. So I went with rings, of the ear and finger variety. I didn’t know how annoying a double ring would be, but I loved the look of this cross one. Honestly? Not as constricting as I thought. Plus, it’s adjustable. Add some gold midi rings (the ones I’m wearing are sold out) and nail polish and your fingers are set. As I’m looking at the website for the black-cross single earring, I’m realizing that I’ve been wearing it wrong. Oh well. At least I figured out that it was also adjustable. And anyway, the Batman earrings are easy to figure out.

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Speaking of bats, THESE SHOES. I saw them and there was a literal gasp. An orchestra started and the world grew fuzzy around the sight of them. There might have been a fantasy of me slow running to them on a beach.

Just kidding. I hate the beach.

But, yes, I love these shoes. I posted this Instagram of them the other night and Ash Costello liked it. That has no significance to this blog; I’m just bragging.

BUT SHOES. As I said, being a shortie makes mirror selfies difficult. The high platform on these definitely help. Or I’m just rationalizing because I wanted everyone to see them. We’re in love, okay?

Once you’ve unloaded your makeup bag over your sink and your face (full details below), snap on your favorite phone case, put on some great music, and work those filters!

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Beauty products used/shown:

 

 

January Playlist

So January didn’t go as planned.

I launched the blog, which, awesome, but instead of getting to post all the looks I wanted to share, I got sick for three weeks. Two weeks of stomach issues that kept me in bed or slogging through my two jobs, followed by a week of a bad cold that caused all sorts of fun things to drip from my face. However, I promise that I was working on the blog behind the scenes every single day, planning outfits, organizing my closet, and, as always, searching and searching (and searching) sites for pieces that I both love and will fit my plus size body.

And when I get in this work mode, I like to have a playlist going. I love music (the first thing I wanted to be as a kid growing up was a singer. Then I got older and realized I couldn’t sing) and I have an obscene amount of music on my iPod (yeah, I still use one of those). So I thought at the end of every month, I’d share what I’ve been listening to.

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  • “How The Story Ends” All Time Low
  • “Angels in Chelsea” Rachel Platten
  • “Woman Up” Megan Trainor
  • “High Maintenance” John Oates feat Hot Chelle Rae
  • “Back Together” Jesse McCartney
  • “I Am Invincible” Cassadee Pope
  • “Life I Love You, Not” Austin Butler
  • “One Of These Days” Jackson Guthy
  • “Possibilities” Alexa Vega & Austin Butler
  • “Young Blood” Bea Miller
  • “Liar” Britney Spears
  • “Jaded” ONE OK ROCK feat. Alex Gaskarth
  • “Doing It To Country Songs” Blake Shelton feat. The Oak Ridge Boys
  • “When You Say Nothing At All” Mr. Vegas
  • “Rise Up” Lynn Anderson
  • “I Wanna Be There” Alabama
  • “Flip Flops” Kristian Bush
  • “Feeling Fine California” Kristian Bush
  • “Love Was Made To Break” Andy Black
  • “Broken Pieces” Andy Black
  • “Moving On And Getting Over” John Mayer
  • “Changing” John Mayer
  • “You’re Gonna Live Forever In Me” John Mayer
  • “Song For A Friend” Dominic Sherwood
  • “Him Or Me” Bun E. Carlos feat. Hanson
  • “U Don’t Get 2 Do That” Nash Overstreet
  • “Magnetic” Nash Overstreet feat. Nikki Williams
  • “Brand New Man” Nash Overstreet *
  • “Ride” Nash Overstreet
  • “U Don’t Get 2 Do That (Frank Pole Remix)” Nash Overstreet
  • “Take On The World” Rowan Blanchard & Sabrina Carpenter
  • “Ancient Light” Allman Brown *

 

Skullcandy Ink`d Mic`d 2.0 Earbuds – Black
Apple iPod classic 80GB black

Pilot G2 Retractable Premium Gel Ink Roller Ball Pen, Fine Point, Purple Ink
Zoella “She designed a life she loved” stationery book

 

Why a fashion blog?


Most of my friends cringe at their photos growing up and say out loud, “What was I thinking?” I never had that problem. My mom picked out my clothes until I was eighteen.

And we have very, very different tastes.

For so long, I hated shopping. It was always a back and forth battle in the dressing room or browsing the racks. I had no desire to wear anything revealing, but in the late nineties, I coveted things like silver pleather pants, lime green novelty tees, and then as I got older all I wanted was black, black black. But that wasn’t what my mom liked, and since she was the one with the money, I was always left with a weird compromise outfit that didn’t make either of us happy, especially me.

But I promise this post isn’t a giant shot at my mother.

There was another reason that shopping was so upsetting to me. And that was my weight.

I wasn’t a “fat kid” but people made me feel like one, so I was sure I was. My friends were all petite and slim and therefore, at least 20 pounds lighter than I was. It didn’t help that I developed very early. I started wearing a bra in the third grade and was a C-cup by junior high. By the time I graduated high school I was pushing DDD. While my size 0 friends were coveting the fact that I could fill a bra that required an underwire, I was crying that I couldn’t shop at Limited Too, that my hips made me look like I was constantly wearing mom jeans even though I was thirteen, that when people looked at my group of friends, they labeled me as “the fat one,” a name that always found it’s way back to me.

I figured that I couldn’t escape the fat label, so I stopped caring how much I ate and did whatever I wanted. But this post isn’t about my highs and lows of my weight so we’ll skip all those numbers for now.

Once I was no longer under my mom’s fashion control, I embraced what I liked, which was basically a lot of novelty tees. The problem with my little tees displaying my love for Legolas or The Boondock Saints was that nothing fit right. The XL label didn’t account for my large cup size, didn’t think how it would fit an actual XL person, that rolls that would stretch the fabric weirdly and turn into an unflattering crop top after two washes. So that turned into me living in a black hoodie zip-up. It would cover up the things I wanted covered, but still reveal the Jem and Holograms decal I loved.

I was told my look was juvenile. My mom tried to buy me colored tops, and I kept a few, but I always felt matronly in them, never liking the colors or the way the cut of them made me feel. My best friend’s mom begged me to stop wearing black. My friends made little comments about how they dressed better than I did. Shoes were no better. I wear a size 7 1/2 and am only 5’1″ so if anyone can pull off a high heel, it’s me. The first time I tried to leave the house in a pair, I was laughed at. I had five pairs of heels and I wore three of them once in the entire time I owned them.

I was finally making my own decisions about clothes and it felt like everyone, including the clothing stores were making it difficult for me.

After that, I gave up. I still wore my black, but I stuck to plain slacks and tees that were interchangeable from work to hanging out with my friends. The only thing that I was able to get creative with was my jewelry. Some people still gave me a hard time about my leather cuffs or my earrings that looked like a pair of zippers, but more often than not, I would get compliments from strangers about my choices in accessories. “I love all your rings!” “That handkerchief looks great in your hair.” “That purse is so cute!”

I honestly don’t know what finally flipped for me, but I know it happened in the last couple of years. I started shopping online more, searching outside of stores that could be found in my home state of Massachusetts, even outside of the United States. I finally measured my body, and paid attention to the size guide on websites and if you’ve never done this OMG PLEASE IT’S A LIFE CHANGER. Everything was eye opening, realizing what stores catered to my body type and what didn’t. Not settling for the plus size stores or departments that didn’t adhere to my style. I went through my whole closet and got rid of everything I hated wearing, but kept because it fit or was work appropriate. If it didn’t make me feel like Cailin, it didn’t have a place in my life, never mind my closet.

I didn’t do a giant shopping haul because ain’t nobody got money for that, but I slowly started collecting pieces from places I’d never shopped from before, but had found through the magic of Polyvore. Strappy sandals from the UK, comfy tees from China, hand-stressed shorts from Etsy. And, yes, I still wear all my crazy jewelry.

So cool, Cailin. You got over your jaded history with clothes.

But why a fashion blog?

I decided to start this blog because the more I started wearing what I wanted to wear–the skater dress when I was just going to the mall, the flower in my hair when I was just going for a car ride, the bat coat in the middle of January–the more people commented about what I had on, this time in a positive way. People wanted to know where I got my shoes or my rings or even my makeup bags. I don’t have a lot of plus size friends, but I have come across some women that are as frustrated as me that they can’t just walk into any store and grab anything they please. But while I’ve found enjoyment in browsing the internet for things that I like AND will fit, some people don’t.

In short, this blog is a giant answer to the question: “Where did you get that?”